Thursday, December 6, 2007

Insomnia is trendy...

Much like A.D.D., insomnia is rather trendy these days. I wish that the past few weeks were merely me attempting to fit in. I'd say I've slept about 3/24 hours, every day, for the past however long. Too long.

It sucks.

I'm not tired. I just get bored laying in bed for hours upon hours.

Example, I went to bed shit-face-wasted around 11:45 PM last night. I woke up 2 hours later and haven't been able to sleep since.

Fuck everything.

I'm getting my license back soon. Pretty cool.


Wednesday, December 5, 2007


Oh, to fuck it
I’m gonna have a party
Oh, fuck it
I’m gonna have a party

I had the blankest year
I saw life turn into a TV show
It was totally weird
The person I knew I didn’t really know

Nada Surf rules.
grand rapids is cold and snowy and looking out the window every morning is sad.

that being said, i like it when it's snowing.

I've had a couple good days.

Note to self: tonight, at the bar, don't spend 40 dollars at half off night. you might die.



Saturday, December 1, 2007


I'm not asking for a girl to love me. I've had that once or twice. All I'm asking for is a girl that will let me love her for everything, and more than what she is. Because, in my experience, that is when girls get scared. That's when she ends everything.

A girl will never know what true love is like.
Only because she doesn't want to know.

I want to be a terrible person.
Only because being a real, kind, honest, loving, genuine person... killing me.

I've made mistakes, yes. I am human.
But I'm fucking tired of feeling like shit because I constantly do the best I can and fail.